March Has Struck Again

I haven't posted lately because of a new goal I set with myself that I would stay positive as much as possible which my life has made rather challenging. Weddings are very stressful and it is hard to keep from just plain whining about the whole ordeal when you daily are getting calls from relatives to change details or they will be unhappy or unable to attend. Now here is the positive spin. When the day comes I (hopefully) will be too exited to even remember the drama and it won't matter to me anymore. I will be able to forget about all the boring little details and just have a good time.

Little 'un last Thursday had a doctors check and they ran some blood work on him and found that his allergies to food are much more extensive than even I was aware. He will be getting more specific testing in a few months but until then he is on a very strict diet. (No wheat, soy, dairy, eggs or citrus). This diet so far using my limited recipe list has been very expensive. He doesn't eat red meat at all in fact the only meat he is guaranteed to eat is pork. Now here is the positive spin. The whole family will be able to loose some weight, little 'un doesn't need to but hubby and I have been struggling with our weight for months. This is our chance to loose the weight in a healthy way. I will also have a good excuse for my frequent baking frenzies. I just feel bad that my son has to suffer for my curse of March.

For me it's not the ides of March to beware it's the whole fraking month! Next year I think I may just hide under my bed until it is over.

Links!

Today I was surfing over my usual websites and noticed that Jason over at The Wild Hunt had a rather nice list of articles up today! I encourage you all to go over and check out the interview he posted about the Catholic show The Arena. They interviewed Star Foster from Patheos.com and it was just a really illuminating interview!

Hope to have something of my own thoughts about what he posted up by tomorrow!

More Updates

Well I worked over time this weekend and got the house picked up. We had a play date/ dinner with one of little 'un's friends yesterday so I got my butt in gear. Trying my best to stay motivated and keep the house clean. School was less than stellar this week will be trying to do better next week. March is almost over and my energy levels should be picking up in the next few weeks. I can't wait for warm weather! BBQs with friends and all the energy I need to keep in shape and keep the house clean. I have more t post but it will have t wait little 'un is getting into trouble!

March

Have I mentioned yet that I hate March? This always just seems to be the month that everything goes wrong and people just loose their minds. At least for the last five years that is how I have experienced it. People I care about get deathly ill, and there is nothing I can do to ease their suffering. Unexpected crisis emerge with family and friends. The roof collapses, car accidents, you name it. If something horrible is going to happen to me it always happens in March. By the end of the month I'm so grumpy I don't even like my company anymore! I just end up feeling depressed and totally out of control.

This March has been tame compared to most. My grandfather only almost died; he is still recovering but he is home from the hospital now. My future mother-in-law has been having a banner week on annoying me. She is trying her hardest to sabotage the wedding plans, we have HAD to change the date no less than three times to satisfy her whims. Calling my already swamped with wedding plans mother to complain about the wedding plans for two hours. I mean how dare we plan a wedding different from the way she did hers. (Well we only did a small wedding reception, we didn't feed our guests a full meal). How dare we spend our modest tax return on our wedding day instead of a new car like she wanted us to! How dare we do a theme wedding; well shes not dressing up for it! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! At this point I don't care what it looks like or when it happens I just DON'T GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE! I was waiting for this exact scenario to happen for the last few weeks. I don't know which I liked more; not having her drive me nuts but waiting for the proverbial poop to hit the fan or actually having it all messy and out in the open. There is (hopefully) the end of my bridezilla temper tantrum.

I just cannot wait for March to me over!

Quick Post

Hope you all had a blessed Ostara we have been really this week. Planning the wedding has moved forward but I am not any less stressed out about it. Had a bunch of people over so the house work is only so-so right now but I cannot foresee any problems arising to keep me from getting it back to order. School of the little 'un is really going well, he is really enjoying this weeks theme. I have had a huge burst of inspiration for my Etsy shop but I may have to postpone the opening with the wedding and everything. I am hopeful though that it will go well when it does open. I'll be back with some other things later this week!

Happy St. Paddy's Day

I love how St. Patrick is listed as the patron saint of Ireland when he isn't even IRISH. He was a Roman slave who was taken to Ireland. When he escaped he joined the Church and went back to Ireland. What about the he drove the snakes from Ireland thing? Total BS. Ireland hadn't had snakes since the last ice age, it was a last minute addition to his story. This is why bunches of frat boys drink themselves into a stupor on green beer as honorary Irishmen. Anyway enough of my ranting on this mother of all non-holidays!

The Lessons of Spring

I was in a little bit of a depression spin last night that would have made communication with anyone just nasty. However little 'un just knew what to do, he dragged me outside for a bit of a romp. (Isn't he so smart?) It was just a little on the chilly side so we didn't stay out long but we managed to see the first bunny of spring (lots of tracks in the leftover snow), a large flock of geese, and cute little squirrel prints that I got to show little 'un. We sat at our uncovered picnic table for awhile and just enjoyed the fresh earthy air. Snapped me right out of my funk, feeling much better today. Isn't nice how spring just kinda does that to you? Out of the dark of winter spring arrives and everything just starts looking up; the earth warms and flowers bloom. I ordered my seeds for spring planting and it ended up costing me a lot less than I had been planning for. Looking forward to working in my garden again. Yet again the Mama just wows me with her splendor and I find the bright side of things again.

Updates!

Taking it easy this week because it's my birthday. Going to use the money I got for my projects. A few head coverings and some supplies for my etsy shop so I'll be posting more next week!

So Whats Going On?

Just once again wanted to update you all on how things are going here. My goals are still where they were the last time I posted so I'm not going to bore you all with them again. However; there has been a new development here at home. I'm planning my LEGAL wedding. Hubby and I are not in the eyes of the state legally married and for some of our blood relatives this is a problem and so we are going to seek the piece of paper marriage. It is also a problem for me because without the little piece of paper from the government I cannot get health insurance. There are also a myriad of other personal reasons for us to seek this union but as so many of you already know planning a wedding is HARD, and very stressful. I can see the blessing in it because the stress has given me over to a bit of a Spiritual awakening that has already proven a boon to my life and will undoubtedly continue to do so.

The first phase was some dream visitations from my totem animals. Dreaming of animals wouldn't have caught my eye if timing hadn't been so good. Dreaming of a totem animal in of itself might not be noticeable to me but dreaming of two in the space of a week really woke me up (pun intended). I had been struggling with my day to day Pagan-is and it allowed me to find a new wellspring of belief and reminded me that while I might not be doing hour long complicated rituals I can see my everyday life as an example of my Pagan practice. Hestia also came calling to me in a much louder sense and I have been exploring her worship more fully and feeling her out so to speak. She has been this great mysterious Goddess figure for so long now I've gone and found out who she is. It's always boggled my mind why someone who has only ever really worked within the Celtic framework would be so called by a Greek (or the Roman Vestia) Goddess but I guess it's just going to have to remain a mystery right now.

As part of the call from Hestia (or maybe it is why she called to me in the first place) I have also been getting the call to dress in what is called a Plain sort of fashion; Head covering included. Which as a self-identified feminist just seems crazy. However I am fond of dresses and skirts of Amish design and the Quakers also. The head covering is a little jarring because I had always thought of this as a monotheist practice. Internet to the rescue! I have found so many blog posts about other Pagans and their struggles with the choice to cover their heads for many reasons. Plus youtube videos wahoo! So I have come to the compromise that since most women do not cover their heads until they are married (in any tradition) I will get myself some coverings (my birthday is coming up) and wear them on a trail basis until after the wedding when I will make a more permanent commitment to covering or chose not to do so at all.

As a side note Hestia has always been depicted with a veil over her head, go figure. I am sure there are going to be a great many posts in the future about this subject if I ever get through the wedding planning.